He was taught at a young age that impressions matter, so year after year he worked to impress. To make those impressions, he made noise. That noise came in the form of questions to everyone he met. He asked all the people all the questions, so he could make those impressions and make them feel seen and heard, but he didn’t share his motives.
The impressions he made continued and so did his unwillingness to say what he truly wanted. He continued to ask questions to everyone encountered, yet he silently started drowning in the noise he was creating. He wouldn’t admit it to himself, but he really wanted to be seen and heard, that’s it.
All that noise being created wasn’t for them – even though he thought it was – that noise he was creating was built under selfish and conditional terms.
They took – he gave. It was symbiotic and it was not sustainable, because of the hidden conditions. The energy he created while making noise began to lose its luster as he perceived a painful truth. The truth about givers and takers. Givers give and takers take, and he realized he was a taker disguised as a giver. Pretending to be a giver, when he wanted to be a taker allowed resentment to form, and this resentment changed the tone of his noise. It became harder and darker and began to cut and slice.
That gentle and curious nature of the giver was drowning in the selfish noise of the taker. He hadn’t been truly curious. He wanted to be seen and was asking questions solely to receive questions in return, and it was that conditional curiosity that led to the gasping and drowning.
Irony struck. Life threw curveballs and he didn’t want to drown, he wanted to thrive. It was in that moment, his last breath before dipping below the surface that the realization of the power of being a giver lifted him up. Being a giver fuels curiosity, which sparks listening and that listening saves lives. The willingness to see and hear those around him without the condition of being seen or heard in return allowed for peace. After years of being a taker in hiding, he learned that becoming an unconditional giver lifted that true curiosity and his listening allowed learning. Becoming an unconditional giver saved the taker.
God bless all of you- and may He send peace to you during your times on this planet.
Much love- Trav
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